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    Monday, January 3rd, 2011
    10:55 am
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    "Oh, we had lots of that too," Dove inserted eagerly"I couldn't go back to Washington with Jane, because there're so many girls there, if I should meet one of them with her, well, it wouldn't be so goodJane's a hell of a swell kid, wonderful wife, but you know she takes her church seriously, and she'd be awfully upset
    Lieutenant (sg) DoveHe had been assigned to the division as an interpreter at replica tiffany jewelry almost the same time Hearn had come in, and with amazing, with startling na?veté he had announced very carefully to everyone that his rank was equivalent to captain in the Army, and that the responsibilities of a lieutenant sg were greater than those of a major or a lieutenant colonel in the ArmyHe had told the officers this in officers' mess on Motome and had been loved accordinglyConn had not spoken to him for a weekBut to the impedimenta that kept true love louis vuitton prices apart, or the poem went something like thatIn any case, they were delighted with each other nowHearn remembered Dove's saying to him once when he first came to the division, "You know, really, Hearn, you can appreciate this because you're an educated man like me, but do you know there's sort of a coarser element in the officers in the ArmyThe Navy's more careful Apparently, Dove had made the sublime effort; he accepted Conn now
    They all accepted one another pasha cartier watch in time, with of course all the gossip requisite to acceptanceEven Conn and he had made upThey hated each other, of course, but that was conveniently forgottenA week after their quarrel he had passed Conn in the G-2 tent, and Conn had cleared his throat forcibly and said, "Looks like it's gonna be cooler today
    "Yes," Hearn had said
    "I got a lot of work today, I appreciate it cooler," Conn had added, and after that they made a point of nodding to each sale gucci handbags otherToday on the beach he had been talking to Dove, and Conn had come over
    "Yes, sir," Conn repeated, "many's the party we've hadYou talk about that whisky and dandruff gag, what was his name, Fischler, any relation to Commodore Fischler?"
    "I don't think so
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    Sunday, January 2nd, 2011
    10:55 am
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    wire back some excuse to keep her from coming, because she was
    already
    on her wayNot that they'd be likely toEulalie was forever begging
    her to come see them, and hospitality was still the unwritten law of
    the land in the South
    But no sense gambling when you could have a sure thing, and she had
    to
    have her aunts' house and protection to rolex submariner price begin withCharleston was a
    mighty stuck-up, proud place, and Rhett was obviously trying to turn
    people against herNo, she wouldn't think about thatShe was going
    to love Charleston this time
    Everything was going to be differentHer whole life was going to be
    differentDon't look back, she'd always told herselfNow she truly
    meant itHer whole life was behind her, further behind with each turn
    of the chanel purses wheelsAll the demands of her businesses were in Uncle
    Henry's
    hands, her responsibilities to Melanie were taken care ol, her children
    were settled at TaraFor the first time in her adult life she was
    free to do anything she wanted to do, and she knew what that was
    She'd prove to Rhett that he was wrong when he refused to believe
    that
    she loved himShe'd show him that she didAnd then he'd
    be sorry he'd logo chanel left herHe'd put his arms around her and kiss her, and
    they'd be happy forever after
    Even in Charleston if he insisted on staying thereLost in her
    daydream, Scarlett didn't notice the man who got onto the train at
    Ridgeville until he lurched against the arm of her seatThen she
    recoiled as if he had struck herHe was in the blue uniform of the
    Union ArmyA Yankee! What was he doing here? Those days chanel bag price were
    done,
    and she wanted to forget them forever, but the sight of the uniform
    brought them all backThe fear when Atlanta was under siege, the
    brutality of the soldiers when they stripped Tara of its pitiful store
    of food and set fire to the house, the explosion of blood when she shot
    the straggler before he could rape her Scarlett felt her heart
    pounding with terror all over again, and she almost chanel knockoff cried
    Saturday, January 1st, 2011
    11:03 am
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    “But Ah’m a college man
    “So you’ll build fine latrines for the camps and design perfect shit holes in the field,” laughed
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    “The educated ones must first know how to fight,” said Jason, hoping he was chanel handbags sale right
    “Always first!” exclaimed the Belgian“For their schooling is suspiciousWill they doubt? Will
    they think when they are paid only to follow orders? Oh, no, mon ami, I would not emphasize
    your érudition
    “Let it come out gradually,” added Bourne“When they need it, not when you want to offer it
    “Bien!” cried spy bag fendi Maurice“He knows what he’s talking aboutA true légionnaire!”
    “Can you fight?” asked Jason“Could you go after someone to kill him?”
    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    223
    “Ah killed mah feeancee and her two brothers and a cousin, all with a knife and my bare hands
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    Manhunt for Crazed Killer in Nashville
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    Bourne remembered the newspaper headlines of only weeks ago, as he stared at the face of the
    young American“Go for the Legion,” he said
    “If push comes omega de ville to shove, MrFran?ois, could I use you as a reference?”
    “It wouldn’t help you, young man, it might only hurtIf you’re pressed, just tell the truthIt’s
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    “Aussi bien! He knows the LegionThey will not take maniacs if they can help it, but they—how
    do you say it, Fran?ois?”
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    Friday, December 31st, 2010
    11:03 am
    @@@@@I told myself such feelings -
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    amounted to three-days-in-advance flop-sweat -
    were stupidI had once made a ten-million-dollar
    pitch to the StPaul City Council, which at that
    time had included a man who'd gone on to become
    the Governor of MinnesotaI'd seen two girls
    235
    through first dance recitals, cheerleading tryouts,
    driving lessons, and the hell of adolescenceWhat
    was showing some of my paintings to an art gallery
    guy compared to that?
    Nevertheless, I made my way up the stairs to
    Little Pink with leaden heels
    The sun was going down, flooding the big room with
    gorgeous and improbable tangerine light, but I
    felt no urge to try and capture it - not this
    eveningThe light called to me, just the sameAs
    the photograph of some long-gone love, happened on
    by accident while going through an old box of
    souvenirs, may call to you
    Even upstairs I could hear the grinding voice of
    the shellsI sat down and began poking at the
    clutter of items on my junk-table - a feather, a
    water-smoothed stone, a disposable lighter rinsed
    to an anonymous grayNow it wasn't Emily
    Dickinson I thought of, but some old folksong:
    Don't the sun look good, Mama, shinin through the
    treesNo trees out there, of course, but I could
    put one on the horizon if I wanted toI could put
    one out there for the red sunset to shine through
    236
    I wasn't afraid of being told I had no talentI
    was afraid of Signor Nannuzzi telling me I had a
    leetle talentOf having him hold his thumb and
    forefinger maybe a quarter of an inch apart and
    advising me to reserve a space at the Venice
    Sidewalk Art Festival, that I would certainly find
    success there, many tourists would surely be taken
    by my charming Dalí imitations
    And if he did that, held his thumb and forefinger
    a quarter of an inch apart and said leetle, what
    did I do then? Could some stranger's verdict take
    away my new confidence in myself, steal my
    peculiar new joy?
    "Maybe," I saidBecause painting pictures wasn't like putting
    up shopping malls
    The easiest thing would be just to cancel the
    appointmentexcept I'd sort of promised Ilse,
    and I wasn't in the habit of breaking the promises
    I made to my children
    My right arm was still itching, itching almost
    hard enough to hurt, but I barely noticedThere
    were eight or nine canvases lined up against the
    wall to my leftI turned toward them, thinking
    237
    I'd try to decide which ones were best, but I
    never so much as looked at them
    Tom Riley was standing at the head of the stairs
    He was naked except for a pair of light blue
    pajama pants, darker at the crotch and down the
    inside of one leg, where he had wet the
    Thursday, December 30th, 2010
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    I told my story again as the two women led me down a hallway and then through the very first
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    The room was lady dior familiarI'd been in only one place like this, but Melanie's childhood was full of
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    Wednesday, December 29th, 2010
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    "How do you know I couldn'ta stayed out?"
    Minetta snorted"I know it 'cause nobody who's got a brain in their head would go in unless they had to He dumped his box on top of some others, and started back to the boats"You're out on a limb when you get stuck in the ArmyThey ain't a damn thing you can do if fake prada somethin' happens to yaPoor bastard's wife dies, and he's stuck out here"You want to know why Gallagher feels bad?"
    "I knowThere was a cousin of mine whose wife got killed in an accidentJesus, you shoulda seen the way he carried onFor what? For a dame? I tried to talk to him, I said to him, 'Listen, what the hell are you lettin' go watches gucci all that water for? There's lots of damesIn six mont's you'll be shackin' up again an' you won't even remember what this one looked like' He looks at me and starts bawlin', 'Oh, oh, oh,' and I try to tell him againSo what does he say to me?" Polack paused
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    In spite of himself, Minetta laughed"You expect me to believe that?"
    Polack shrugged, and picked up a box"What do I care if ya believe itI'm tellin' ya, that's all"Hey, you know what time it is?"
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    Monday, December 27th, 2010
    10:56 am
    @@@@@After their working hours as clerks or
    @@@@@After their
    working hours as clerks or laborers, former plantation owners took the
    streetcars or walked to the outskirts of the city to rebuild the
    two-mile oval of the Charleston Race Course and to plant the
    blood-soaked churned mud of the land around it with grass seed
    bought
    with combined widow's mitesLittle by little, by symbols and by
    inches, Charlestonians were regaining the essence of their beloved lost
    worldBut there was no room in it for anyone who didn't belong
    there
    couldn't hide her amazement at the orders Scarlett gave her when she
    was unlacing for bed the first night in the Butler house"Take the
    green walking-out costume I wore this morning and give it a good
    brushingThen take off every speck of trimming, including the gold
    buttons, and sew on some plain black buttons instead
    "Where I going to find any black buttons, Miss Scarlett?"
    "Don't bother me with fool questions like thatButler's
    maid-what's her name? CelieAnd wake me up tomorrow at five
    o'clock
    "Five o'clock?"
    "Are you deaf? You heard meI want that green outfit
    ready to put on when I get up Scarlett sank gratefully into the
    feather mattress and down pillows on the big bedIt had been an
    over-full, over-emotional dayMeeting Miss Eleanor, then shopping,
    then that silly Confederate Home meeting, then Rhett appearing from
    nowhere with the silver tea service Her hand stretched over to the
    empty space beside herShe wanted him there, but perhaps it was
    better to wait a few days, until she was really accepted in
    Charleston
    That miserable Ross! She wouldn't think about him or those horrible
    things he'd said and doneMiss Eleanor had denied him the house,
    and
    she wouldn't have to see him, she hoped not ever againShe'd think
    about something elseShe'd think about Miss Eleanor, who loved her
    and who was going to help her get Rhett back, even if she didn't know
    that's what she was doingThe Market, Miss Eleanor had said, was
    the
    place to meet everybody and hear all the newsSo to the Market she
    would gotomorrowScarlett would have been happier if it wasn't
    necessary to go so early, at six o'clockI have to
    say this for Charleston, she thought sleepily, it's plenty busy, and I
    like thatShe was only halfway through a yawn when she fell asleep
    Sunday, December 26th, 2010
    11:04 am
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    “A trap,” said the Deuxième veteran“God in heaven, it’s a trap!”
    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    265
    26
    Twice Bourne had passed the dark, quiet row of old stone houses on the boulevard Lefebvre in the
    concrete backwater of the fifteenth arrondissementHe then doubled back to the rue d’Alésia and
    found a sidewalk caféThe outdoor tables, their candles flickering under glass, were peopled
    mostly by gesturing, argumentative students from the nearby Sorbonne and MontparnasseIt was
    nearing ten o’clock and the aproned waiters were growing irritable; the majority of customers were
    not full of largess, louis vuitton travel either in their hearts or in their pocketsJason wanted only a strong espresso, but
    the perpetual scowl on the face of the approaching gar?on convinced him he would get mud if he
    ordered only the coffee, so he added the most expensive brandy he could recall by name
    As the waiter returned to the service bar, Jason pulled out his small notebook and ballpoint pen,
    shutting his eyes for a moment, then opening them and sketching out everything he could envision
    from the row of houses on his inner screenThere were three structures of two attached houses
    each, separated by two narrow alleywaysEach double complex was three stories high, each front
    entrance reached by climbing a steep flight chanel earrings of brick steps, and at either end of the row were vacant
    lots covered with rubble, the remains of demolished adjacent buildingsThe address of the Jackal’s
    buried telephone number—the address was available in the underground tunnels solely for repair
    purposes—was the final structure on the right, and it took no imagination to know he occupied the
    entire building, if not the entire row
    Carlos was the consummate self-protector, so one had to assume that his Paris command post
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    houses, he himself limping unsteadily in the shadows beside his companion; and for his second
    appraisal, he had hired a middle-aged whore as his cover, with no limp or stagger in his gaitHe
    knew the terrain now, for all the good it did him, but it was the beginning of the endHe swore
    himself to that!
    The waiter arrived with his espresso and the cognac, and only when Jason placed a hundredfranc
    note on the table, accompanied by a wave of his hand, did the man’s hostile countenance
    move to neutral ground
    “Is chanel knockoff there a pay phone nearby?” asked Bourne, removing an additional ten-franc note
    “Down the street, fifty, sixty meters,” replied the waiter, his eyes on the new money
    “Nothing closer?” Jason peeled off another note, twenty francs“I’m calling right here within a
    few blocks
    “Come with me,” said the aproned gar?on, gingerly picking up the franc notes and leading
    Bourne through the open doors of the café to a cashier seated on high at the far end of the
    restaurantThe gaunt, sallow-faced woman looked annoyed; obviously she assumed that Bourne
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    Saturday, December 25th, 2010
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    "Wireman!"
    275
    "What?"
    "Was Elizabeth ever an artist herself?"
    He said nothing for a long timeThere was only
    the sound of the waves, louder tonight with the
    wind to push themThen he said, "That's an
    interesting question, EdgarIf you were to ask
    her - and I'd advise against it - she'd say no
    But I don't think that's the truth
    "Why not?"
    But he only said, "You'd better get walking,
    muchachoBefore that hip of yours stiffens up
    He gave me a quick seeya wave, turned, and was
    gone back up the chanel logo boardwalk, chasing his
    lengthening shadow, almost before I was aware he
    was leaving
    I stood where I was a moment or two longer, then
    turned north, set my sights on Big Pink, and
    headed for homeIt was a long trip, and before I
    got there my own absurdly elongated shadow was
    lost in the sea oats, but in the end I made it
    The waves were still building, and under the house
    the murmur of the shells had again become an
    argument
    276
    How to Draw a Picture (IV)
    Start with what you know, then re-invent itArt
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    Just don't be surprised when weird flowers sprout
    from common soilNo one
    taught her; she learned for herself
    The more she drew, the more she sawThe more she
    saw, the more she wanted to drawAnd the more she saw, the more her language
    came back to her: first the four or five hundred
    words she knew on the day she fell from the cart
    and struck her head, then many, many more
    Daddy was amazed by the rapidly gucci replica growing
    sophistication of her picturesSo were her
    sisters - both the Big Meanies and the twins (not
    Adie; Adie was in Europe with three friends and
    two trusty chaperones - Emery Paulson, the young
    man she'll marry, had not yet come on the scene)
    The nanny/housekeeper was awed by her, called her
    la petite obéah fille
    The doctor who attended her case cautioned that
    the little girl must be very careful about
    277
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    bundled up in her "puddy jacket and thumpums,"
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    That was the winter she saw her family grow bored
    with her work - Big Meanies Maria and Hannah first,
    then Tessie and Lo-Lo, then Daddy, then even Nan
    MeldaDid she understand that even genius palls,
    when taken in large doses? Perhaps, in some
    instinctive child's way, she did
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    Friday, December 24th, 2010
    10:55 am
    @@@@@ Melanie sighed in contentmentShe was
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    Melanie sighed in contentmentShe was vibrantly aware of the warmth of the boy in my lap
    and the touch of the man who still stroked his hand against my armShe wasn't even upset by
    Ian's arm around my shoulders
    You're feeling the No Pain, too,I teased her
    I don't think it's the No PainThis is more than I've ever had
    This is so much of what I lost
    What was it that made this human love so much more desirable to me than the love of my own
    kind? Was it because it was exclusive and capricious? The souls offered love and acceptance to
    allDid I crave a greater challenge? This love was tricky; it had no hard-and-fast rules–it might
    be given for free, as with Jamie, or earned through time and hard work, as with Ian, or
    completely and heartbreakingly unattainable, as with Jared
    Or was it simply better somehow? Because these humans could hate with so much fury, was
    the other end of the spectrum that they could love with more heart and zeal and fire?
    I didn't know why I had yearned after it so desperatelyAll I knew was that, now that I had it, it
    was worth every ounce of risk and agony it had costIt was better than I'd imagined
    By the time the food was prepared and consumed, the late–or rather early–hour had gotten to
    us allPeople stumbled out of the crowded room toward their bedsAs they left, there was more
    space
    Those remaining slouched down where we were as room became availableGradually, we
    melted in place until we were horizontalMy head ended up pillowed on Jared's stomach; his
    hand stroked my hair now and thenJamie's face was against my chest, and his arms were
    around my neckOne of my arms wrapped around his shouldersIan's head was cushioned on
    my stomach, and he held my other hand to his faceI could feel Doc's long leg stretched beside
    mine, his shoe by my hipDoc was asleep–I could hear him snoringI may have even been
    touching Kyle somewhere
    Jeb was sprawled on the b
    Thursday, December 23rd, 2010
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    Hearn was on until threeHe sighed, stretched his arms, and Tiffany Bracelets slumped down in his chairThere was a magazine in his lap, but he had scanned through it, and a little bored, he tossed it onto a tableAfter a moment or two, he took a letter from his breast pocket, and read it again slowlyIt was from a college friend

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    Wednesday, December 22nd, 2010
    11:05 am
    @@@@@There was hunger, the
    @@@@@There was hunger, the never-ending
    desperate hunger of the bad days at TaraAnd Yankee soldiers,
    coming
    closer and closer to Atlanta, looming in the shadows of the piazza
    outside her window, handling her and whispering that her legs would
    have to come off, sprawling in a pool of blood on the floor at Tara,
    the blood spurting, spreading, becoming a torrent of red that rose into
    a mountainous wave higher and still higher over a screaming small
    ScarlettAnd there was cold, with ice covering trees and shrivelling
    flowers and forming a shell around her so that she couldn't move and
    couldn't be heard although she was calling "Rhett, Rhett, Rhett come
    back" inside the icicles that were falling from her lipsHer mother
    passed through her dream, and Scarlett smelled lemon verbena, but
    Ellen
    never spokeGerald O'Hara jumped a fence, then another, then fence
    after fence into infinity, sitting backwards on a shining white
    stallion that was singing with Gerald in a human voice about Scarlett
    in a Low Back'd CarThe voices changed, became women's voices,
    became
    hushedShe couldn't hear what they were sayingScarlett licked her
    dry lips and opened her eyesOh, she looks so
    worried, poor thing"Don't be frightened," Scarlett said hoarsely
    "She been having a nightmare," said Rebekah"The bad dreams are
    all
    over now, ScarlettThe doctor said you're going to be well in no time
    at all Anne Hampton's dark eyes were shining with earnestness
    Eleanor Butler's face appeared over her shoulder"We've come to
    take
    you home, my dear," she said"This is ridiculous," Scarlett
    complained"I can perfectly well walk Rebekah clamped a hand on
    her shoulder and continued to push the wheelchair slowly along the
    crushed oyster-shell road"I feel like a fool," grumbled Scarlett,
    but she slumped back in the chairHer head was throbbing with sharp
    dagger-like painsThe rainstorm had brought back weather suitable
    for
    FebruaryThe air was crisp, with a bite in the wind that was still
    blowingAt least Miss Eleanor brought my fur cape, she thoughtI
    must have had a mighty close call if I'm allowed to wear the furs she
    thought were so sh
    Sunday, December 19th, 2010
    11:02 am
    @@@@@I turned north eagerly, my steps
    @@@@@I turned north
    eagerly, my steps lengtheningeep a lookout for the nextShe remembered another formation
    for me, and I started craning my head around at once, though I knew it was useless to search for
    it this early
    It would be to the eastNorth and then east and then north again
    The lift of finding another milestone kept me moving despite the growing weariness in my legs
    Melanie urged me on, chanting encouragements when I slowed, thinking of Jared and Jamie
    when I turned apatheticMy progress was steady, and I waited till Melanie okayed each drink,
    even though the inside of my throat felt as though it was blistering
    I had to admit that I was proud of myself for being so toughWhen the dirt road appeared, it
    seemed like a rewardIt snaked toward the north, the direction I was already headed, but
    Melanie was skittish
    I don't like the look of it,she insisted
    The road was just a sallow line through the scrub, defined only by its smoother texture and lack
    of vegetationAncient tire tracks made a double depression, centered in the single lane
    When it goes the wrong way, we'll leave it was already walking down the middle of the
    trackst's easier than weaving through the creosote and watching out for cholla
    She didn't answer, but her unease made me feel a little paranoidI kept up my search for the
    next formation–a perfectM, two matching volcanic points–but I also watched the desert around
    me more carefully than before
    Because I was paying extra attention, I noticed the gray smudge in the distance long before I
    could make out what it wasI wondered if my eyes were playing tricks on me and blinked
    against the dust that clouded themThe color seemed wrong for a rock, and the shape too solid
    for a treeI squinted into the brightness, making guesses
    Then I blinked again, and the smudge suddenly jumped into a structured shape, closer than I'd
    been thinkingIt was some kind of house or building, small and weathered to a dull gr
    Saturday, December 18th, 2010
    10:59 am
    @@@@@The static that came roaring out of the
    @@@@@The static that came
    roaring out of the Mercedes's four speakers this
    time seemed as loud as a jet fighter's engine
    Even with my palm over one ear, it ripped through
    my headI thought I heard Wireman yell, but I
    wasn't sure
    Jack pushed the power button again and the hellish
    blizzard of noise cut out"I think we should skip
    the tunes," he said
    "Wireman? All right?" My voice seemed to be coming
    from far away, through a steady low ringing noise
    ix
    Jack might have made it a little way beyond the
    point where Ilse got sick; maybe notIt was hard
    to tell once the growth got highThe road
    narrowed to a stripe, its surface humped and
    buckled by the roots running beneath itThe
    foliage had interlaced above us, blotting out most
    of the skyIt was like being in a living tunnel
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    The windows were rolled up, but even so, the car
    was filling with a green and fecund jungle smell
    Jack tested the old Mercedes's springs on a
    particularly egregious pothole, thumped up over a
    ridge in the pavement on the far side, then
    slammed to a stop and put the transmission in PARK
    "I'm sorry," he saidHis mouth was quivering and
    his eyes were too big"I'm-"
    I knew perfectly well what he was
    Jack fumbled open the door, leaned out, and
    vomitedI'd thought the smell of the jungle
    (that's what it was once you were a mile past El
    Palacio) was strong in the car, but what came
    rolling in with the door open was ten times
    headier, thick and green and viciously aliveYet
    I did not hear a single bird calling in that mass
    of junk foliageThe only sound was Jack losing
    his breakfastAt last he collapsed back against
    the seatHe thought I looked like a snowbird
    again? That was sort of funny, because on that
    early afternoon in mid-April, Jack Cantori was as
    pale as March in MinnesotaInstead of twenty-one,
    he looked a sickly forty-fiveIt must have been
    937
    the tuna salad, Ilse had said, but it hadn't been
    the tunaSomething from the sea, all right, but
    not the tun
    Friday, December 17th, 2010
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    grander than a mere fake hermes spacious, oblong room, fitted up for the
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    than the profusion of mahogany, and the crimson velvet cushions
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    grandHere are no aisles, no arches, no inscriptions, no banners
    No banners, chanel sale cousin, to be ‘blown by the night wind of heaven
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    “You forget, Fanny, how lately all this has been built, and for how
    confined a purpose, compared with the old chapels of castles and
    monasteriesIt was only for the private use of the familyThey have
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    Jane Austen
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    eveningPrayers were always read in it by the domestic chaplain,
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    Saturday, December 11th, 2010
    11:31 am
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    Friday, December 10th, 2010
    11:04 am
    @@@@@The quays enticing with fronts and
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    The Liffey was left behind, the tram was suddenly in shade tall
    buildings were near on both sidesScarlett felt the chill"We'd
    better go down at the next stop,) said Charlotteget off at the
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    Charlotte gestured toward the street that cur ahead of them
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    to see the shopsWould you like before we begin? You should
    become
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    "I don't know, CharlotteI might just take a look inside shop
    first
    That fan in the window-see the one in that back with the pink
    tassels-it's the most adorable thingOh, and Chinesey one, I didn't
    see that at firstAnd that precious Look Charlotte, at the embroidery
    on those glovesNave you ever? Oh, my goodness Charlotte
    nodded
    at the liveried door attendanthe pulled the door wide and bowed
    She didn't mention that there were at least four more shops on
    Grafton
    Street with hundreds of fans and glovesCharlotte was quite sure that
    Scarlett would discover for herself that a major attribute of a major
    city is an infinite spectrum of temptationAfter ten days of sittings
    and fittings and shopping Scarlett went ome to Ballyhara with dozens
    of
    presents for Cat, several gifts for rsFitz and Colum, ten pounds of
    coffee and a coffee maker for erselfShe was in love with Dublin and
    could hardly wait to returnAt Ballyhara her Cat was waitingAs
    soon as the train left the city, Scarlett was in a fever to get home
    Tuesday, December 7th, 2010
    11:02 am
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    “We'll just wait our turn,” Jeb told me
    He leaned against the wallI stood stiffly beside him, uncomfortably conscious of the four pairs
    of eyes on me, though I kept my own on the dark hot spring rushing by underneath the porous
    floor
    After a short wait, three women exited the bathing room, their wet hair dripping down the
    backs of their shirts–the athletic caramel-skinned woman, a young blonde I didn't remember
    seeing before, and Melanie's cousin SharonTheir laughter stopped abruptly as soon as they
    caught sight of us
    “Afternoon, ladies,” Jeb said, touching his forehead as if it were the brim of a hat
    “Jeb,” the caramel woman acknowledged dryly
    Sharon and the other girl ignored us
    “Okay, Wanda,” he said when they'd passed
    I gave him a glum look, then made my way carefully into the black room
    I tried to remember how the floor went–I was sure I had a few feet before the edge of the
    waterI took off my shoes first, so that I could feel for the water with my toesI remembered the inky appearance of the pool–ripe with suggestions of
    what might lurk beneath its opaque surface–and shudderedBut the longer I waited, the longer I
    would have to be here, so I put the clean clothes next to my shoes, kept the smelly soap, and
    shuffled forward carefully until I found the lip of the pool
    The water was cool compared to the steamy air of the outer cavernThat didn't
    keep me from being terrified, but I could still appreciate the sensationIt had been a long time
    since anything had beencoolStill fully dressed in my dirty clothes, I waded in waist deepI
    could feel the stream's current swirl around my ankles, hugging the rockI was glad the water
    was not stagnant–it would be upsetting to sully it, filthy as I was, if that were the case
    I crouched down into the ink until I was immersed to my shouldersI ran the coarse soap over
    my clothes, thinking this would be the easiest way to make sure they were cleanWhere the
    soap touched my skin, it burned mildly
    I took off the soapy clothes and scrubbed them under the waterThen I rinsed them again and
    again until there was no way any of my sweat or tears could have survived, wrung them out, and
    laid them on the floor beside where I thought my shoes w
    Monday, December 6th, 2010
    11:17 am
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    The General lit a cigaretteThat's such a fatuous statement that people immediately disbelieve you, but this time it happens to be true His mouth moved into the good-guy grin"The only trouble is, one thing remains with youSomewhere you picked it up so hard that you can't shake the idea 'liberal' means good and 'reactionary' means evilThat's your frame of reference, two wordsThat's why you don't know a damn thing
    Hearn scuffled his feet"Suppose I sit down?"
    "Certainly The General looked at him and then murmured in a completely toneless voice, "You're not annoyed, are you, Robert?"
    "No, not any more With a belated insight he understood suddenly that the General had been riding a great many emotions when he ordered him to stand upIt was so difficult ever to be certain what went on in the General's headThrough their whole conversation Hearn had been on the defensive, weighing his speech, talking with no freedom at allAnd abruptly he realized that this had been true for the General also
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    "You're a fool if you don't realize this is going to be the reactionary's century, perhaps their thousand-year reignIt's the one thing Hitler said which wasn't completely hysterical Outside the partially opened flap of the tent, the bivouac sprawled out before them, rank and cluttered, the raw cleared earth glinting in the early afternoon sunIt was almost deserted now, the enlisted men out on labor details
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    Saturday, December 4th, 2010
    10:55 am
    @@@@@Could she believe Miss Crawford to deserve
    @@@@@Could she believe Miss Crawford to
    deserve him, it would be—oh, how different would it be—how far
    more tolerable! But he was deceived in her: he gave her merits which
    she had not; her faults were what they had ever been, but he saw them
    no longerTill she had shed many tears over this deception, Fanny
    could not subdue her agitation; and the dejection which followed
    could only be relieved by the influence of fervent prayers for his happiness
    It was her intention, as she felt it to be her duty, to try to overcome
    all that was excessive, all that bordered on selfishness, in her
    affection for EdmundTo call or to fancy it a loss, a disappointment,
    would be a presumption for which she had not words strong
    enough to satisfy her own humilityTo think of him as Miss Crawford
    might be justified in thinking, would in her be insanityTo her he
    could be nothing under any circumstances; nothing dearer than a
    friendWhy did such an idea occur to her even enough to be reprobated
    and forbidden? It ought not to have touched on the confines
    of her imaginationShe would endeavour to be rational, and to
    deserve the right of judging of Miss Crawford’s character, and the
    privilege of true solicitude for him by a sound intellect and an honest
    heart
    She had all the heroism of principle, and was determined to do
    her duty; but having also many of the feelings of youth and nature,
    let her not be much wondered at, if, after making all these good
    resolutions on the side of self-government, she seized the scrap of
    paper on which Edmund had begun writing to her, as a treasure
    beyond all her hopes, and reading with the tenderest emotion these
    words, “My very dear Fanny, you must do me the favour to accept”
    locked it up with the chain, as the dearest part of the giftIt was the
    only thing approaching to a letter which she had ever received from
    him; she might never receive another; it was impossible that she
    ever should receive another so perfectly gratifying in the occasion
    and the styleTwo lines more prized had never fallen from the pen
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    Mansfield Park
    of the most distinguished author—never more completely blessed
    the researches of the fondest biographerThe enthusiasm of a woman’s
    love is even beyond the biographer’sTo her, the handwriting itself,
    independent of anything it may convey, is a blessednessNever were
    such characters cut by any other human being as Edmund’s commonest
    handwriting gave! This specimen, written in haste as it was,
    had not a fault; and there was a felicity in the flow of the first four
    words, in the arrangement of “My very dear Fanny,” which she could
    have looked at for ever
    Having regulated her thoughts and comforted her feelings by this
    happy mixture of reason and weakness, she was able in due time to
    go down and resume her usual employments near her aunt Bertram,
    and pay her the usual observances without any apparent want of
    spirits
    Thursday, predestined to hope and enjoyment, came; and opened
    with more kindness to Fanny than such self-willed, unmanageable
    days often volunteer, for soon after breakfast a very friendly note
    was brought from MrCrawford to William, stating that as he found
    himself obliged to go to London on the morrow for a few days, he
    could not help trying to procure a companion; and therefore hoped
    that if William could make up his mind to leave Mansfield half a
    day earlier than had been proposed, he would accept a place in his
    carriageCrawford meant to be in town by his uncle’s
    accustomary late dinner-hour, and William was invited to dine with
    him at the Admiral’sThe proposal was a very pleasant one to
    William himself, who enjoyed the idea of travelling post with four
    horses, and such a good-humoured, agreeable friend; and, in likening
    it to going up with despatches, was saying at once everything
    in favour of its happiness and dignity which his imagination
    could suggest; and Fanny, from a different motive, was exceedingly
    pleased; for the original plan was that William should go up
    by the mail from Northampton the following night, which would
    not have allowed him an hour’s rest before he must have got into a
    Portsmouth coach; and though this offer of MrCrawford’s would
    rob her of many hours of his company, she was too happy in having
    William spared from the fatigue of such a journey, to think of
    anything elseSir Thomas approved of it for another reasonHis
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    nephew’s introduction to Admiral Crawford might be of service
    The Admiral, he believed, had interestUpon the whole, it was a
    very joyous noteFanny’s spirits lived on it half the morning, deriving
    some accession of pleasure from its writer being himself to
    go awa
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